Just when I thought I had braved the worst, I got an unexpected sucker punch to the face yesterday. It’s another work-related issue that I can’t discuss in detail, but it has me feeling furious, humiliated, and conquered. I feel done, caput, annihilated. And it’s sad.
I work at my non-private practice job only three days a week, but damned if this week didn’t feel like three years. All the work dramarama went down on Tuesday. That night, I felt like a school kid who’d dropped her lunch tray in front of everyone and couldn’t bear to return the following day. I actually prayed that I’d get sick in the middle of the night and tried to act pitiful, hoping Isaac would say I was too sick to go to work. But as my luck would have it, I woke up feeling just fine. Damn.
So, instead of calling out of work, I got butt in the shower, put on some makeup, and dressed myself up. When it comes to clothes and my appearance, I’m very lazy. I dress to meet the minimum standard and take as little time as possible, but this morning I needed all the confidence I could get. Since I could only muster a tiny bit from inside, I had to rely on a solid exterior—one that said, “I don’t give an f—k what you think or say.”
Since it was too late to call my resident fashion blogger friend for assistance, I was on my own. Here was my best approximation:
Don’t worry, I have no intentions of becoming a healthy living/lifestyle/fashion blogger. The only reason I’m blogging about this outfit at all is, I realized how important it is to find some confidence when you feel beat down, and sometimes the clothes you wear can actually help give you a little boost.
In case I needed more reasons to know I couldn’t be a fashion blogger, at approximately 3pm today, I realized the size stick was still on my top. So, apparently confidence is a state of mind because my confident ass was walking around sporting a damn size sticker for most of the day.
It is in these moments that I must continue to remind myself, whatever does not kill me can only make me stronger…
PS: anybody looking for an awesome, hardworking part time employee???
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You look great with or without cool clothes 🙂 I hope things get better at work for you… From what I’ve read on this blog I know you are an awesome person and you will kick ass at everything you do 🙂
Thanks–very sweet comment. I know things will get better–I just want everything to be better now. 😉
sorry things suck right now! i hope everything works out for you! you are a great person and i would hire you as my therapist anytime lol but im in pa
Lol—that is very kind of you to say. If you’re ever in NC and in need of some therapy, you know where to find me. 😉
I love the title of this post! : )
Don`t let anyone get you down, you seem very hardworking and professional, if they can`t appreciate that I am sure there is an employer out there who will!
Also, love the outfit, yellow looks fabulous on you!
Thank you–nothing is more draining than working hard, playing the game, and then finding out the rules have changed. That seems to be what is happening to me and I just need to accept the reality. I really appreciate your comment. 🙂
Oh man. I have been there – the drama at work, the defeated feeling, the wanting to hide – and the dressing like a honey badger. Sadly, for me, my honey badger dressing didn’t change a damn thing about my dysfunctional workplace, but it gave me the boost of confidence I desperately needed at that time in my life.
I hope work gets better for you soon – or that you can get out of there post-haste. Good luck and keep dressing up – it really does help. Fake it till you make it.
It’s amazing how simply dressing up can promote a sense of confidence, but my situation is like yours and I can dress up as much as I want. Thanks for the encouragement—I have to hang in a bit longer.
I feel your pain. I got a major sucker punch at work this week too. You’re right about the outfit. Looking nice does give you confidence.
Work sucks–let’s quit. 😉
You look fabulous! Hope things get better, will be thinking about you 🙂 Coffee date (or wine or both) soon?
Thanks…..I thought you’d appreciate the size sticker part. I really thought–Michelle would never do this. I am a fashionista failure.
Sorry you hate a rotten day 🙁 Even though I would just like to stay in sweats most days, I always make sure that I look my best when I go to work. It’s a lot easier to ‘fake it til ya make it’ when you look like a boss.
Kay meant to say *HAD* a rotten day. Oh and since I’m back, I will add that pencil skirts are good for making you feel like a boss. Try it.
I do love some pencil skirts–very sophisticated. I’ll have to get one!
So true—it sort of creates an armor when you are polished and pulled together. I felt much less vulnerable–it’s very strange. But I wish I could just wear PJs everywhere and let my guard down. 😉
Ugh…work troubles SUCK. And I know exactly what you mean when you talk about being the kid that dropped their tray in the lunchroom. The first steps back are the hardest!
Thinking of you, friend.
Thanks….I wanted to just hide under the covers and let the day pass. But eventually I’d have to go back–damn I wish I didn’t need that paycheck!
So true! The days when I’m tempted to dress how I feel (when I feel down in the dumps) are the days I know I need to make an extra effort and it does usually help! You rocked it out. Hope it gets better!
I can’t help but think of those cheesy sitcom moments where the parent tells the kid who doesn’t want to go back to school that before you know it, someone else is going to embarrass themselves and become the new target…a terrible system, but it’s true that what seems like a mountain to you is a molehill to others.
Lol….I’ve had those sitcoms running through my head too–funny! I did have to remind myself that it’s a much bigger deal to me than to anyone else.
You look adorable, and I’d totally take fashion advice from you! So sorry work is blowing. Hope it gets better!
Thanks—-work—ughh.
I totally do this, too! Especially if I have a presentation that I’m nervous about. I usually never do my hair or makeup for work. I’m a 5 minute up/dressed/ponytail kinda girl. Unless it’s a special occassion, then I love to get dressed up! But, you’re right. Sometimes you just need a little extra boost of confidence. Go get ’em!
Dressing up is a must for presentations. I admire the people who put in the time everyday, but I just would rather sleep.
I’m sorry about the work drama, been there, done that, hated it. I hope it gets better soon.
You look fabulous, btw…. And at your size, the only thing you have to worry about is some mean chick that is bigger than you seeing it and acting out in a fit of jealousy. 🙂
Funny–I don’t know that I’m that small. Fortunately, the sticker was on my patterned shirt so it wasn’t so visible. I have, however, gone to work with a sticker on my pants….in the back…down my leg. Very embarrassing. I always check for those sneaky stickers, but sometimes they’re very hard to see.
Hope today was much better.
I was off today—so it was much better! 🙂
I’m so sorry to hear this. I hope things get better for you soon. Good for you for picking yourself up and dusting yourself off – it’s gotta be hard to feel down when you look so fabulous!!! Btw, “dress to meet the minimum standard” – LOVE THIS and couldn’t agree more!
Dressing to meet the minimum standard happens not because I don’t care about my appearance, but because I care more about sleep. Every morning, the alarm goes off early enough for me to look decent, but I choose to hit snooze until I only have enough time to meet the minimum standard. Which, in case you’re wondering, takes 15-20 minutes. 🙂
I was just telling my mom this the other day – sometimes, I wear outfits; but most days, I just wear clothes 😉
Work drama is the worst. It sucks when work becomes a place you don’t want to go, I’ve witnessed my husband go through this and feel like it shouldn’t have to reach that point. At least you get to do your own thing part of the week, so that’s a plus.
By Monday, anyone who noticed you dropped your tray will have forgotten – hopefully you can use the weekend to your advantage and try to do the same 🙂
I like the outfits and clothes distinction—that is me exactly. And you are so right about me being able to do my own thing part time—that is my light at the end of the tunnel each week! Thanks for hte sweet comment. 🙂
If vengeance will help Johnny knows people…….just saying.
I’m with Lee. Work sucks. Let’s quit.
Johnny went to church one day and sang a solo with the price tag sticking out of his suit. The pastor was the one who pulled it off right after his song.
You know yellow is my favorite color.
Stormi was asking about you today.
Hmmmm…..I will keep this in mind. 😉
Glad to know Johnny wears stickers on his clothes too. At least I was only being reprimanded while wearing a size sticker and not singing in front of an entire church.
I did not know yellow was your favorite color. It’s in style this fall, so I hear.
Give stormi a scracth behind the ears.
=( Sorry to hear about the work drama. I hope it eases up soon. More motivation to go full time on your own perhaps?!?
Thanks—or motivation to use all my vacation then get pregnant and go on maternity. 😉 JUST KIDDING
lol.